Give Me Words to Speak

I wrote the following in 2010.  In January 2010 my husband and I started the journey of driving our oldest daughter to college away from home(to be exact 1,000 miles away from home). There were so many thoughts going through my mind. Have I, as her mother, taught her diligently as Deu 6:7 teaches?  Have I taught her by example to be a follower of Christ, even it means standing alone with the Lord?  Will she depart now that she is older, away from her parents' rules and supervision? Will see think wisely when making decisions or just live on the spur of the moment not thinking of consequences? Will she continue to follow Him?  I took some comfort knowing this was a Christian college and thought she would have professors, resident advisers, etc., help mold and guide her.  As I count the hours down and watch the miles get closer to her new path, I can't help to wonder why I can't be more like a mother bird. Mother birds sit on their baby eggs until they hatch, then they teach the babies how to eat, how to get their food and then when the time is right, they push their babies out of the nest to teach them to fly. After that, that mother bird is ready and lets their babies leave home for good to start their life. I wish I could be like that mother bird.

Our job as a parent is to work ourselves out of a job, right? Well, I am not ready to give up that job.. 

I am discovering that I am not like that mother bird. I want to grab my "baby's" wings or whatever I can get my hands on to keep her here in the nest. It is too soon.

Heavenly Father Give me Words to Speak.

There just wasn't enough time. There is so much more I want to teach her, but now I must be like that momma bird and do what I know I must do. Put her in our heavenly Father's care (where she has always been anyway) and let her start this wonderful journey!
January 5, 2010 the day. Can I do this?   Of course in my head I know I can because He is there for me too. I just wish my heart would learn that too.